A first lesson in the fragility of love and the preternatural cowardice of men. And out of this disillusionment and turmoil sprang Beli's first adult oath, on that would follow her into adulthood, to the States and beyond. I will not serve. Never again would she follow any lead other than her own Not the rector's, not the nuns', not La Inca's, not her poor dead parents'. Only me, she whispered. Me.